A Life Redeemed From Abuse
– by Jenny-May Hudson
“For I know the plans I have for you,’ says the Lord, ‘plans for well-being and not for trouble, to give you a future and a hope.” – Jeremiah 29:11
In the green leafy city of Pretoria, my father beat my mother even before they were married. After the birth of four children, it was only a matter of time until he directed his anger toward us. He would play mind games, manipulate emotions, and use violence to subdue us. The fear I felt for my father was overwhelming. His physical abuse was not the worst though; a family friend (sensing I was looking for fatherly love) began grooming me for sexual molestation. It started out innocently enough with treats and pet names (I was his “special” Jenny-May); then one night I woke to find Uncle Etienne in my bed. My sobs scared him off, but the shame and fear I felt stayed with me. After confiding in my mother, she asked me to keep it to myself. The transformation of my character, and the healing of my many wounds took years. It is a work in progress.
But through it all, I did not blame God. As a child, I directed the reasons for the abuse back to myself: I believed that I was the cause and that I deserved the punishment that came my way. I loved my father, I prayed for him. Through the years, I have experienced God as a loving Father, which supersedes the image I grew up with. I wrote Monsters, Mice, and Mercy because we frustrate the enemy each time we take the very thing that he intended to harm us with, and use it to enlighten and free through Christ, those who have travelled through the same valleys. As I speaker, I love young and old, men and women, and I have a wide variety of topics that I speak on. I am regularly in South Africa to speak at ladies’ days and conferences. I love sharing my story and helping others live victoriously, despite their circumstances. My book is available for purchase through CUM Book stores nationwide.
JOY! Magazine (January 2018)